Lillith's musings...Dear Padme'

This a fictional piece, an intimate letter I wrote when I found myself sitting around wondering what Anakin would say if he was to write Padme' a letter after her death...in an attempt to come to grips with his loss ... It is sad, I know but necessary for some in the "real" world. Please post a reply and let me know what you think, thankyou all. -Lillith

Dear Padme', You were my love, my life, beloved. I only wished to save you. Once there was the dream of love returned, of us, now dark with the unknown, I knew not how to hold fast, to keep you. You, my "angel", were my light in the pressing darkness of war always accepting, nurturing, fulfilling me like only you could. With you I was ever not only the Jedi knight but, also the man I knew I could be, not only strong, but confident knowing you would be there upon every return...brief furlough, from the fight. That I could look forward to holding you in my weary arms ready to reassure my aching heart with your words of love and devotion your embrace as tight as my own, locked in the moment not wanting to let go... But, now the terrible truth comes rushing back to me, the loss almost beyond words... You, my lovely wife, now lost to me the result of my hunger for power and misplaced faith...please forgive me. I cannot bear the thought that I may not know you on the other side. May not have the chance to make you understand...I only wanted to save you, but, I believed a lie and now that lie has replaced the warrior with machine and my very heart is slowly turning to stone as I have lost all I ever loved and have nothing left but, my ruthless ambition... When I am alone with only my thoughts, the facade of the conqueror put neatly away, the man, just the man, remains in silent vigil, wanting only to go back in time to your ever waiting arms, to...us. Eternally yours, now and forever.-Anakin.